This is the third bible study that I have done with the SheReadsTruth community and I am really enjoying them.  The aim is to spend time in God's Word each day, to share what you are learning and to provide support and community to each other.  So far, I haven't really been sharing much. I have been trying to get into the daily habit of spending time with God and I have been trying to keep my head above the water.  I am sure that God is working on many areas of my life at the moment, but there is definitely one which I know He is molding and that I am trying my hardest to change: Letting go of my comfort. 



A few years ago I found myself in a long term bad relationship. During that time, I made many decisions just trying to survive, decisions that I know where not based on prayer or wisdom or anything else that I so desperately needed at the time.  Instead, I found myself trying to cope with the situation the only way I knew how.

No one every really teaches you how to deal with your emotions.  How to process things correctly or how to move forward from those circumstances. It's a skill that you are required to use in order to be a healthy person, but its not something that is taught at school or at church (at least not in my church).  So how did I cope with my fears, emotions and broken dreams? ....... I ate.

I ate my way through that entire period of my life and by the time i had managed to end things, begin to create my life over from the ground up and finally take some steps forward, eating to comfort myself had become my habit. My first choice in time of stress, discomfort or depression.  My go to.

I have been battling with this for years now and I know that in order for me to take that next step towards healing and the life God has for me, I need to deal with my food and comfort issues.  During these past bible studies God has been gently talking to me about seeking my comfort in Him rather than the chocolate bars. That by turning to food to fulfil my need for comfort, I am really telling God that I don't trust him - Ouch!

So here I am, taking it one day at a time, trying to pause when my instinct kicks in to reach for the sweet stuff and instead reach for God and the comfort He has promised me.  Some days I feel like I am finally getting it, while other days (like today) I feel like I have taken ten steps back again.