12:05pm | Stopping for a quick lunch. I had hoped to go for a walk at lunch time but it was raining out and so instead I decided to wash my dishes and make another cup of tea before heading back to work.

1:08pm | Mom stopped by for a quick cup of tea during her lunch break. She only works about a ten minute walk from my house so she frequently stop's by when she knows I am working from home.


2:28pm | Smidge sound asleep next to me while I continue to work.


3:40pm | Smidge loves surveying the neighborhood from the upstairs windows. He sits there for ages watching the world go by until something catches his eye...and then he is off with a shot and runs outside trying to find whatever caught his attention while sitting in the window.


 4:30pm | I call it a day work wise and head off to my local supermarket for a few bits and pieces.


7:15pm | The power came back on and I could finally make a start on doing some work on my blog. I had recently updated my blog and wanted to do some work on a few posts.

8:00pm | Took a quick break to call my parents and check in with them, then got back to my blog.



9:23pm | Time for a shower and the start of my evening routine.  I am trying to pay better attention to my skin so I recently purchased some new skin products which I used - Clarins Double Serum, Dior Hydra Life eye cream and Lancome night cream. After this I brushed my teeth, combed out my hair and climbed into bed.

10:12pm | Time for bed and a few YouTube videos.... a bit of a bad habit I have picked up recently but its the only time I get to catch up on them.

10:40pm | Finally time to call it a night.

As I said earlier, it has been so much fun to be present in my day and to watch it unfold while pulling together this post. I am aiming to pull together a layout on this page for my project life album over the next few days and would love to take a peak at how your day unfolded.

I have been struggling with my weight for around ten years - trying to work out more, trying to eat better food, trying to say no to giving in and just eating what I want. Each time I fail, each time I try a little harder...I find my heart getting wrapped up tighter and tighter.

This is a real struggle for me. Not only to actually lose the physical weight but to unwrap my heart from the hold that this struggle has had on me. My core belief says that my worth directly relates to the number on the scale, that having a guy fall in love with me can only happen with a perfect body, that being happy is only for those who can shop in any clothing store and wear anything with confidence....but my mind knows that these beliefs are all a lie and a big one at that.

These past few months though, my hearts cravings have been shifting. They have been moving from craving skinny, thin and beautiful to craving freedom. I crave the day when this is no longer a problem for me, when food isn't my comfort, when my weight doesn't hold me back and when my value is based on more than just what the current cultural view is on the right body type.

I know that this change that I want in myself is not something that will happen over night. It is something that I am going to have to work on and I know that it isn't something I can do all on my own.  But this is my goal, this is what I am working towards, and this is where I am going to be owning and sharing my story while I practice loving myself every day.

While I work on untangling my heart and re-defining my core beliefs, my weight loss goal is to lose sixty pounds by the 31st of December 2016..... and there it is! I will be checking in on my blog at least once a month and hopefully a little more every now and then.  If you have a big goal that you are working on this year, I would love it if you shared it with me so that we can encourage one another.