• Shoes will never be my thing........but nail polish definately is.  I have odd shaped feet and because of this i really battle to buy nice girly shoes, so instead of shoes i buy nail polish. I love doing my nails and trying out new colours and patterns - it's one thing that i am definately known for.
• I am secure in who i am because of Jesus. I definately never used to feel that way and there are still days every now and then that i don't, but more and more i am secure in who i am as a person, not because of something that i have realised in life or something i have managed to figure out but because of Jesus and who He is and what He has done for me.
• Whatever comes your way in life, remember to have fun.  It's easy to get side swept with the ordinary, everyday thing.
• Don't leave a watermelon in your kitchen for 10 days, you may just come back to the most disgusting smelling kitchen you can think of....oh yeah, and dont forget the gross gooey mixture that is left behind from said watermelon!  YUCK!!
• People may dissapoint you, but don't let that stop you from trusting and loving people.  Bitterness won't get you anywhere in life.
• Don't forget that you have people who love you. They may not be near, and you may not speak to them often, but they love you, care about you and pray for you.
• I am brave and courageous.  Doing things despite the fact that i am scared is brave in my books.  Even after all my visits to the dentist,  i am still afraid when i go, i have to make myself stay and fight the urge to run....but i go because i know it needs doing and because i am brave and courageous.
• God's goodness is all around - remember to see the goodness of God in your life.  In those things that you had no control over yet received. Like my promotion at work, the parking space that just happens to become free, the near miss accident and so much more.
• Peanutbutter and chocolate really are a great combination!
• Pretty underwear really can make you feel sexy. I never really believed it until recently - but what can i say, I believe it to be true.
• Don't stop learning. Take every opportunity every single day to learn something new.  An open mind will keep you learning, keep you young and keep you wise.
• Travel as much as you can. Exploring new places and new cultures is so much fun.  I really believe that by learning a little about different cultures and different people, it can help you to really love people.
• If something is not difficult to achieve, its not worth doing.....no need to say anymore on that one.
• Now that i have my boundaries back in place, make sure that you keep your boundaries in check. If you lose your boundaries, you may just end up losing yourself.
• Holidays are the best! I don't mind what it is - Christmas, Thanksgiving, Easter - I love them all and try to make the most of them each year.
• Do more things on your Life list.  You have to challenge yourself - it keeps life interesting.
• Reading has always been a love of mine and probably always will be.  I can't get to sleep at night if i haven't ready at least a few pages of a book.
• I seem to be a real romantic at heart.  There's no getting away from it - I am a sucker for a love story.
• Remember to finish those things that you start.  I haven't always been the best at finishing everything that i start, but i am making a more conscious effort to not start things if i don't think i can finish them.  Let me just clarify - not starting things if i can't finish them and not starting things because of fear are two very different things....try not to get them confused.
• Many hours can be wasted in front of the TV or surfing the internet.  Keep an eye on the clock and dont spend too much time on things that are fruitless.
• Play as often as you can
• Dont give up on love - despite what you have experienced and what you know, never give up on love and all that it has to offer your life.  Don't build walls around your heart trying to protect it, be generous with it. 
• Moisturise your skin daily - your not getting any younger and one day you will be glad that you took this little piece of advice.
• Hot chocolate warms you from the inside out, and so does a good cup of tea, homemade soup and a delicious bowl of porridge.
• It's so important to reduce stress as much as possible - be it by having a hot bubble bath, reading a magazine or painting your nails.
• Gimmicks don't work - they never have and never will. Don't waste your time nor your money.  If it's worth doing, do it well.
• When second chances come your way, grab them with both hands and make the very most of them.
• Yoghurt doesn't just taste good - it makes a wicked facemask or base for a body scrub.
• Embrace technology - don't be afraid of it. Embrace it with both arms.
• Live your life to the fullest, make the most of every opportunity that comes your way, believe in yourself, spend time with your heavenly father and above all be happy in your life!

Its 7:43 pm

I'm sitting in the lounge, surrounded by papers, mugs and a yellow hue. This post is unplanned and unprompted. And i cant guarantee that its going to make much sense either....

I'm sitting here longing to be back on holiday, to be in a country that i love and where the feeling of dreams coming true seems within reach.  The few days that i spent at home before having to go to work were great.....and i know i have to work for a living, I'm just not sure i am in the right place.

One day back at work and i feel overwhelmed, out of my depth and unable to breath.  I knew it could possibly be tough going back today - especially with what i had to leave behind before i went on holiday; but i was just not prepared for today.  I thought i had it all figured out ( or at least more or less figured out ) and i felt like during my time away, God reaffirmed to me that He had me in this position for a reason. I felt it. I believed it. I was excited about it.  And then "it" became today and here i sit, uncertain if i can do this or if i should be doing this.....questioning what i thought i had heard. 

I'm tired, i haven't been sleeping well, and that is probably impacting my emotions and mood.

Exams are creeping up on me and I'm terrified, the biggest knot that i have felt in a long time.  Why is it that i never feel prepared enough.  Do i take a gamble and study only certain chapters - i don't have time to study them all in depth. 

My skin is shocking at the moment, i feel like a teenager with all these spots on my face.....probably a combination of travel, new medication and Proactive.

I have stayed within my Pro Points for the day, but i ate too many cake slices and now i feel rather yukky.....again probably an element of tiredness involved there.

I want to get up early tomorrow morning to have a quiet time.  I need guidance, direction and strength.

Enough complaining from me....I am after all trying to change my mindset and by doing so, my life. 

I'm off to cut out some study materials and then going to have an early evening.....

Night, night