Focusing on my world, on my problems and my failed dreams and all the things that i am missing out on means that i have forgotten just how Amazing my Heavenly Father is.  I guess its human to focus on ourselves, to spend hours or even days involved in pity parties for all those things in our lives that we can not fix or all those situations that we are unable to change, but by doing so we forget to see just how awesome the God who created the earth is.  He not only created the world we live in but everything around it, all the universes, the stars and the galaxies. The light years and all those things still unknown to us.  Look at these beautiful things that He created in an instant.  If God can create and do all of that then why am i sitting here putting him in a box. Not just any old box, but the smallest, tiniest box i can imagine.  My limitations of greatness are so meaningless to the God who loves me and cares about me - the God who sees the bigger picture.

The bigger picture, how often did i hear that expression and think to myself......I don't fit into the bigger picture. The bigger picture is for long term, for important things, for those people who play a significant part in life. Not for me. 

How sad that i have allowed myself to believe such lies. For them to become so deeply embedded in who i am that they have shaped how i behave and how i have valued myself for a very long time now.   That i shy away from strangers and situations in which i would be in any sort of spot light.  Where these thoughts and lies have impacted who i am so deeply that just talking openly about them brings tears to my eyes. And how else can God heal those hurts if i don't face them, don't honestly reveal the lies that i have believed instead of the truths of what God says about me.

So here i am, and i am making a promise to myself and to God.  I promise to replace those awful lies that i believe about myself with truths from God's word. I promise to do the work necessary to be in a position where God can bring healing to my self image and self esteem.  So that i can have a godly image of myself and in turn have a healthy relationship with those around me as well as with Him.

Over the past few months i have been realising that there are many beliefs that i am holding onto. Rightly or not, they have woven themselves into my very being and only He can unwind them. So here i am Lord, asking you to come into my world, unwind the lies and replace them with your string.  Heal my broken spirit and mind.

Show me your greatness and let me stand in your awesome presence.  You are mighty and so much bigger than i can imagine. You use light years as your measuring stick while i use Cm's or even worse, my own ideas.  Lord, grant me the courage to be brave and to dream big dreams!