I am learning more and more, that when you open your heart to God, He responds. With every step you take towards Him, He steps towards you. It's been a process for me, one day at a time but I am so grateful that He wants me to draw near to Him.
On Thursday I had to travel up to Newcastle to see a client. It's a three and a half hour drive each way which means I have a lot of time for podcasts and music. One the way up, I was listening to the radio and this song came on. From out of nowhere I started crying, tears streaming down my face.
The thing is ... they weren't sad tears. As I listened to this song I began to get a fresh glimpse of who God is and a realization of how much He loves me. That love for me is what makes me who I am. I can not separate who I am from God's love for me and that was both humbling and beautiful beyond words. Gratitude and love just started pouring out of me and for the next few minutes I had a real sense of my heavenly father sitting right there in the car with me as I sped up the motorway.
I have never experienced anything like that before. It is a moment I will never forget. On the whole drive back I listened to the radio, hoping this song would be played again...but it wasn't. I have however had it on repeat since Thursday evening and I knew that I had to journal a page in my bible.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights,
who does not change like shifting shadows.
- James 1:17
Every time this song plays I can't help but lift my hands to the sky in worship and gratitude, so I knew that I wanted my page to have a similar feel or look to it. I wanted vibrant colors across the page to try to express everything I have inside of me now when I hear this song.
I pray that this new realization makes it way into every crack and corner of my heart and life. And I pray that you may truly know that our heavenly Father is a good, good Father. A Father who loves you so very much. A Father who is perfect in all His ways and knows exactly what you need before you even ask Him. He Loves You!
