Love you always and forever!

My mom bought this for me when i turned 18. I was never allowed to wear makeup before this and i guess what you don't know doesn't hurt, because i never really felt like i was missing out. None of my friends wore makeup either so it was never that much of a big deal for me.

Then everything changed.  I turned 18, i got my drivers license, i made plans to leave home and fly half way across the world to America  to start the best journey of my life.  And all with my very first brown eyeshadow, mascara, lip balm and Tommy Hilfiger perfume that my mom bought for me out of her secret little savings fund.

Here i sit, 10 years later having accrued more air miles than i could ever use, living in yet another new continent, having gone through a fiance and a separation and some incredibly tough times, looking at this little plastic container of eyeshadow and having it bring a smile to my face.

Just this week i was having a spring clean, after all i have now been in my flat for over a year which is the longest time that i have spent in one place in the last three years, and as i picked this up i had the same thought that has run through my head every spring clean since 2000......."Is it time to throw out the make up?"

The answer is still no.  Even though i don't wear it i just cant throw it out.

So it appears that this will be staying with me for a little while longer!

Watching this film totally reminded me of my time in the US. When i was living there, a group of us used to leave home at about 10 at night to go to the drag racing in Milford. It was so awesome with all those cool cars and new people. And best of all, i felt so naughty. I was such a little rebel.  It made me feel alive back then, and it did so again today.

I LOVED IT!!

I came across this piece of writing that i had written years ago. I wrote it that long ago that i cant remember exactly how old it is, but looking at what i had written and where things were in my life i am guesstimating it must have been about 4 - 6 years ago.

As is stood there reading this, i was transported back to days of yesterday. Those feelings of being alone, of living a lie, of just wanting someone, anyone to see how i was truly feeling. 

It's interesting to think about how time and our choices can change things.  How completely different my current life is to the life that i was living back then.  The opportunity for growth comes in many forms, this one just appears to have been one of mine.